One more day of this is just another day I have to spend in a body I hate. Life is too short for me not to love the body I am in. So here goes. I am going to pretend like I already have the body I want. I know reality will hit me when I look in the mirror, step on the scale, etc, but I have to be realistic about where I am starting. But I am going to walk and hold my head up like I have the body I want. I am tired of avoiding social situations so that no one will noticed how much weight I have gained. I am sick of it. I don't even want to go to school because I am worried that people will notice I have gained weight. I don't speak to anyone because I feel like a big worthless blob of fat. I just wish I were invisible and I try to make myself that way. No more. I am a valuable human being and it is time to start acting like it. I can reach my goals and have the body I want in 12 weeks without a ton of effort. I have to get in the game psychologically. I have to have a plan. I have a failsafe diet and exercise plan that will work. What I don't have is a plan in place when I am tired, hungry, irritable, lonely, sad, or bored. This will be trial and error, but I have come up with a start.
Tired - take a L-glutamine and L-tryptophan cap, take a short walk
Hungry - drink a glass of water or hot tea, wait 15 mins, then eat if you must
Irritable, lonely, bored - blog, call a friend
Keep constant reminders of my goals. Visualize having already achieved that and how different my behaviors would be if I lived in the body I wanted. I am tired of waiting around for having the body I want to get my life on track. I have a life and I want to live it now.
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